So this was posted on a family members facebook tonight....
"Don't need an angel on my Christmas tree, I already have one looking down on me. Put this as your status if you have someone in heaven you wish could be with you on Christmas."
Now I know that there are many angels who are looking down on me but only one came to mind.....Baby Y. I know it's been five months now and while each day gets a little easier....the pain, thoughts and memories are still there.
I love the holidays....everything from the shopping, food, to spending time with family and friends. This holiday season has been so tough for me! While I am still so thankful for everything I have, wonderful family, great friends, great job, WONDERFUL husband, happy puppy, etc. I cannot help but think about the fact that we were supposed to be welcoming our first baby on/around Christmas. I was supposed to be waddling and have a huge belly by now. It's been very hard to not associate this Christmas with the loss of Baby Y since he/she was supposed to arrive then. I still pray on a daily basis that we are blessed with another healthy baby....sooner rather than later. I still pray that one of my very good friends is blessed with the same thing!
So when I think of all the angels looking down on me this Christmas, I will shed a tear for one special angel that I never got to meet and whom I miss every second of every day.
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